So here I am. I want to be able to share the struggles or successes I have. If anything that I go through, good or bad, can help someone else then why not?
If you have been keeping up with my posts you know that I am newly married and expecting a son! This is our second year of marriage and we are by no means experts. This is also our first child and neither of us have ever been parents, so we definitely don't have all of the answers for parenting!
Before I was married I was an intern turned into an employee at my local church. All of my identity was found in God and Life Church. All I did was study the Word and spend time with God, weather I was serving in an area of the church or if I was study the word! So that was all my days consisted of.
Then I got married and we bought a home and now we're expecting a son. With that comes growing a relationship with your spouse, keeping your home clean and preparing for your child. All of these things take time out of your day. None of them are bad things, but it has been very difficult for me to find the balance in putting effort into those things and still putting time into my relationship with God. It's been trial and error, so far more error than success.
Recently I texted my pastor/ brother-in-law questioning how to figure out a balance in all of this. I wanted the response to consist of a minute by minute break down of a typical day and how much time I should put into this task or that one in order to have the most time with God, in prayer and studying the word. This was not what I got back.
Through those types of talks with people I respect I have come to the realization that I cannot compare my life now to my life then. My identity is not only who I am in Christ now, my identity is also Zack's wife and soon our son's mother. My life has changed a lot. In this my daily routines and schedules will change. But I serve a God who is with me at all times. I serve a God who I can constantly pray to. My spirit calls out to his. Serving him does not only consist of things I do in the church, but also submitting to my husband and being his helper. I serve God when I take care of my home and my family.
So if you are going through a change in your life, don't feel bad or condemned if you can't spend 3 hours a day in the word or prayer anymore. Know that our worship to God is also taking care of the things he has given us and doing our tasks with an attitude of worship!
~Awaken Us~
Brenna Stanford
